So this morning, I totally didn't think I had anything to report to my sensitive soul community this week, as nothing 'major' has taken place. I'm like, "Will I write my blog this week?" I'd rather write nothing then force it, so I put the thought down, thinking if something comes to me, then I'm supposed to report, and if nothing, then I'm not.
Then just this afternoon, as I was walking through the beautiful St Kilda botanical gardens, located just a minute walk away from my home, something DID dawn upon me. And this message got confirmed again, later tonight as I was grocery shopping.
So what happened?
As I was walking across the gardens, with all of my washed washing in tow (washing machine broke down!), I decided to, because I wanted to, walk really slowly. In the past, I've been one of those peeps who walks really fast, always in a rush, always thinking of what I have to do in the next moment that is NOT here and now. But today, I REALLY felt like walking slow. Really slow.
I've also had some nice posts on Facebook come my way, talking about putting your phone down (I've also been one of those peeps glued to their phone!) and take notice of what's going on around you, right here, in the now, in the present moment.
So being inspired by these, I decided to walk very slowly, in the gardens, and just take in, breathe in, my surroundings...
I feel I am reaching a whole new level in terms of connecting to myself and feeling the peace that comes with this...
On the Friday just passed, I finished up a house-sit that I was in for 18 days over the Xmas/ New Year period and into January.
I was blessed enough to be placed in a home that was in Black Rock, just across the road from the beach: The beautiful 'Half-Moon Bay' to be exact. And it was during this whole time, this whole 18 days, that I felt a strong need to be completely alone (besides the company of gorgeous 'Darwin the cat' that I was looking after, a big NY celebration and the rare visit from a friend).
I usually aim to take some time out around the Xmas/NY period to go deep, and work on closing the previous year, and envisioning for the year to come. I did exactly this again this year, however this year was different. This year I didn't actually want to come back to reality, back into the real world because I was loving my own company SO much! I was going for almost daily swims, watching the amazing sunsets almost every night, playing with Darwin, making nourishing meals, reading books and watching my fave mini-series (Outlander! Check it out!).
In the month of January 2008, I was 28 years old and had just moved overseas to live in Cambridge, England. Me and my partner at the time had settled into our new home and he had started his full time job (the reason for us moving there). It was now time for me to start looking for work but I was stuck! Blocked! And didn't know what I wanted to do for work!
I'd been working in the retail industry for the past 6 years and even though I was good at it, I was feeling the depth that it lacked and was yearning to do something much deeper, truer and more meaningful. Something that would nourish my soul. I actually did not know this clearly at the time, all I knew was that I was searching for more. There had to be more to life than how I was living it and what I was doing to earn a living.
For years prior to this day in January, I'd been collecting magazines that had articles, quotes and pictures in them that inspired me. Articles and pictures that made me feel good as I either read them or looked at them. One day, I went through all of the mags and cut out every article, quote or picture that spoke to my heart, that opened my heart, and let love and inspiration flow through it. When finished, I put all of them into a box, a box that I kept hidden and sacred, and which I quietly transported with me to my new home in Cambridge.
On that day in January, where I was feeling stuck and blocked in regards to the job-hunt front, I instinctively pulled out my special, sacred box from its' hiding place. As I opened it up, and began looking at the images and reading the quotes and articles, it was as if a light had been turned on where there was once only darkness. Simply by being in the company of that which I love, that which inspires me, I was able to lift my vibration and get into a state of love, a state of bliss. From feeling stuck, blocked and numb, I had risen above those feelings to a state of hope, love and inspiration...
This blog is more like a chapter from a book (which I'm determined to write one day!). But for now, here it is, in blog format. It is quite a long one, so maybe you can save it for the weekend and pour yourself a cup of tea before going ahead to read this so-called short chapter in my life.
It's in story form, and something that just poured out of me in two hours. Therefore I trust that it needs to be shared. With the Sensitive Soul community. It is a story of falling. Of healing. Of rising. Of triumph. I hope you enjoy it and are able to receive some insights for yourself when it comes to your own healing process. Whether it be physical, emotional, mental or Spiritual.
I got dressed up like a Goddess, went to a festival, and danced my arse off on New Years Eve night and into the morning hours of New Years Day.
It was pure bliss.
And it was something I SO BADLY NEEDED...
2 Sensitive Souls rocking the dancefloor:
Me and Ruth (the organiser of HSP Melbourne!)
Back-tracking to Xmas Day...
I woke up feeling exhausted, foggy headed and my throat and heart were pounding.
In just a few hours I was to attend one of my dearest friend's family Xmas gatherings.
But judging how I felt, this was something I was going to have to miss. And instead, spend the day in bed.
So I called my friend to let her know I regretfully wouldn't be attending, and straight after that, I jumped into bed, into what seemed like a coma of a sleep.
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