I've been sitting in a space of 'nothingness' for quite some time now. Whilst so many belief systems and structures that I had built up in my mind and in my life, have fallen down around me, and continue to do so to this day, the 'nothingness' has, as I've previously mentioned in my Facebook posts, left a wide open space for 'newness' to enter.
Back in June, I went through a period of what I thought was mild-depression, but in hindsight, I can see now, that it was actually grief. Due to loss. As so many things I thought were true, and were real for me, came crumbling down. And what I thought my future would look like, will not, and is not coming to pass.
On top of this, as a sensitive soul, who's intuition is highly developed, and an energy field that has been cleaned up extensively, I've been sitting in dis-belief as my imagination, ideas, and flow of creativity have come to a halt. Not only have I been sitting in 'nothingness' but NOTHING has been coming to me! No thoughts, no ideas, no feelings... NOTHING!
This has had me stumped for over a month now. As being so sensitive, creative, and fast-thinking, my life has always been FULL of this stuff, constantly moving and grooving within me, internally. So coming to a stop, an end, a halt, has been a big shock!
And honestly? The only constant question in my mind has been: WTF?
So in saying this, only yesterday, did I finally decide...
June. What a month it's been.
When the energy forecasters predicted it to be a month of reality checks, boy did they mean it! I've had setback upon setback this month, one after another, which has forced me to sit back, take stock and re-evaluate EVERYTHING.
When I've not been freaking out or completely deflated by it all, I've been laughing out loud from what I now call: 'Setback Heaven!'
I'm lucky to be in my retreat-like home, away from it all, so that I have the time, space and supportive environment to go inward and ask those questions of myself.
Who am I? What do I want? What do I need? What makes me happy? How can I manifest more of my dreams into reality?
Well, I know most of the answers to those questions. But there are still some others that lay there dormant, unanswered, and I'm quietly sitting, asking and listening to what response, from Infinite Intelligence, may come my way.
One message that's been loud and clear in the HOW department is to take all the energy, wisdom, healing and Soulful intelligence, that I've been giving to others over the last 4 years in business, and bring it right back, back to myself, and fill me up, with ALL OF IT!
So yes, the energy has reversed. And I'm being completely and utterly selfish!
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