Do you have the Courage to be who you TRULY ARE as a Sensitive Soul?
Last week I spoke of the experience of getting ‘shut-down’ in childhood, and how we create MASKS (aka personalitites, identities) to protect ourselves from outside influences.
This week I’d like to follow on from this topic, and speak about actually REMOVING those MASKS, what is REVEALED once we do, and most importantly, having the COURAGE to do so!
Last week I provided some examples of memories that dropped into my mind whilst in a meditative state. These memories were of my childhood, of when I was being my TRUE SELF, and other times, of when I was SHUT-DOWN for being my True Self.
For the sake of today’s blog, I wanted to highlight the TRUE SELF memories, and a recent MASK-REMOVAL story, and how they have both REVEALED to me, who I TRULY AM. I also wanted to show, how you too, can use a similar reflective method, of getting to know who YOU truly are, at that Deep, Core, Soulful Level.
So as per last week, I recalled that being my True Self as a child involved things like singing, swinging, dancing, tuning into nature, and having deep conversations…
Another memory also popped up this week, which was of me being very little, and standing in the doorway of my parent’s friends house. Here I was keeping myself entertained by repeatedly opening & closing a ‘door’…. Yes, apparently (my Mum says) that this one activity would keep me entertained for hours! (sounding like a bit of an OCD child right now… Lol.)
Anyways, what I have gathered from those examples, is that I basically LOVED getting LOST in the moment, by engaging in Focused, Repetitive, and Meditative activities that would lead me into a TRANCE-LIKE State…
And I remember, that this was PURE BLISS for me!
And little did I realize then, but can clearly see now, that this was my way, my easeful, natural, intuitive way, of connecting with my SOURCE, and with the DIVINE…
This realisation cam about due to connecting it with another memory of PURE BLISS. However, this memory was experienced in my adult years, and rather than being easy, natural and intuitive, it was down-right scary! This is because it was, and unfortunately at the time, SO DIFFERENT to my NORMAL experience of life.
It was that ONE time, a DEFINING time in my life, when I realized just how SHUT-DOWN I had become, and just how BIG my MASK had grown…
And this experience was brought on by my first time, dancing the 5Rhythms, a free-flowing, meditative, ecstatic dance, where hundreds of people come together, on a large dance-floor, to freely express themselves, and heal themselves, through movement.
I’d heard of the 5Rhythms a number of times in the years prior to actually going…
And the reason for not going earlier was, you guessed it, I was SCARED!
But the way I roll, is to ALWAYS follow a lead. And if I’ve heard of something 3 or more times, then that’s the SIGN… I HAVE to do it! Despite the FEAR!
Despite the FEAR, I did it anyway, and this is where the COURAGE element comes in…
I didn’t know what to do, what would happen, who'd be there, what to wear, what to expect, how to dance, how to let go… etc. etc.
But I did it anyway…
I arrived on the dance floor, and danced through the first two Rhythms, which I found quite easy to move through…
The Rhythm of ‘Chaos’ started blaring out of the speakers. Now with Chaos, the music is normally that of a trance/techno/tribal nature where we have permission to completely let go…
Let go of it all. Let go of the ego, our personality, our identity, our MASK!
And this is what happened:
I began dancing, then I began twirling, around and around and around…
And I couldn’t STOP!
I just kept on going and going and going…
My head and my MASK were like “What the!?”
“What the hell are doing Paula??”
“You’re looking like a complete idiot!”
“You’re losing the plot!”
“Stop it! Stop it now!"
But I didn’t…
I just kept on going...
Moving through the dance...
Moving through the fear...
and nothing was gonna stop me.
Finally the music slowed down, and the next, slower rhythm began…
I slowed down too…
And in that moment, my whole being filled with Energy, Spiritual Energy, and I just stood there, feet locked to the ground, just standing there in PURE BLISS, receiving and taking in this Beautiful, Sacred, Blissful experience…
WOW! WOW! WOW!
This was DEFINITELY a first in my adult years...
Going into a natural state of trance, by 'losing my shit’ and just like the cliche… dancing like no-one was watching (and they actually weren’t!… Lol).
The MASK had been removed…
And there I was, just like that little child…
That beautiful little child...
Who simply LOVES connecting with the Divine...
When had it all stopped?
When had I stopped dancing?
When had I stopped being me, to please others, and not make them feel uncomfortable, and avoid their judgement of me being me?
Dear Sensitive Souls…
The above and the following may sound a little 'out there' or 'woo woo' to some, but I'm gonna say it anyway (Courage!!)... so here goes:
From this story, I want to STRESS, that we are MAGICAL beings.
We have the AMAZING ability to ‘Connect to Divine Source’.
When we sum up the COURAGE, to get of our own way, to let go, to lose our ourselves, to lose our identity, personality, the MASK!, what is revealed is pure, utter MAGIC.
We may be one thing to the outside world, but we are something else COMPLETELY within…
I’d really like to stress the BIGNESS of this…
Yes, even though much of the time we want to hide, we want to close ourselves off, it’s overwhelming, it’s all just too much…
We need to remember who we TRULY ARE!…
Our REAL selves…
Which are truly DIVINE…
Much, much love,
EXERCISE TO TRY: Just as I have done in the above examples, tuning into childhood memories to gauge what I LOVED doing then, and what I LOVE to do now, can allow us to connect the dots & get a good idea of what our 'bliss' actually is! And then, we can follow & act upon that lead, moving toward our own personal happiness & freedom.
AND: If you want to connect more deeply to your own DIVINITY, and gain the Courage to be who you TRULY ARE, then click here, and let’s have a chat about how we can work together to achieve this!
Writer. Empowerment Mentor. Spiritual Guide for Sensitive Souls.